i'm tired

i'm tired not because of exercising nor work non stop.. i'm tired cos for this period of time i keep on studying and waiting.. waiting for wat ? waiting for time to pass and waiting for exam and waiting for u... sigh... it isn't fun to wait althou it's a give for me that i'm can actually be very patient.. hmpff...

sometimes thing work better when both thing gave 1:1 ratio. like study.. notes and books give u 100% while u only give the book n notes 50 %.. means 1:2 so not efficient at all.. hmm... n work ! for my event i know i'm not the highest person n i know sometimes i do be lazy but at least i done my part so i give myself 75% but u.. uuuuuuu n uuuuuuu... u know who lak... u only give me 50%.. so can u tell me can we make it sucess ?? hmm... then u ( some1 else ) i give u 100% but u.. i dono how many ? many only 20%? o less.. sigh.. can we make it happen ? hmmm... i wonder.................................

arghh... i'm totally tired of this life.. why can't we give 1:1 system ? isn't not fair to those who contribute alot to something and to some1 ? hmm.. i wonder..... siggghhhhhh......

finalssssss.......

hmm... as finals approaching.. i get more n more lazy.. arghhhhhh.... wat the heck am i doing ? hmm.. i wonder.. i keep on thinking of some other things than studies.. hmm... somebody pls knock my head !!!

suppose now i need to read on bioinformatics stuff but then.. i'm blogging now.. aikssss... hahha...

hopefully enjoy my previous post lak.. cyah ppl.. good luck in finalss..

I'll wait..

I'll Wait


I’ll wait
My mind is lost and so confused
What should I do?
Oh God, what should I do?
I find myself so missing you
Just whether or not I should?
Hopefully one day
It will come
A time
We will know each other’s mind….


Face to face
It will bring an ending to the mime
I’ll wait and wait
And wait until my waiting days are over.. oOhHh…

I’ll wait from morning ‘till the night, I’m always on my standby
For days I’ll wait, for years I’ll wait, and I tell you that my waiting ends
I pray that my waiting will end
And it end
On the day you say ‘I do’
And that someone will be me


If that someone who’s not me
There’s nothing I can do
But to leave you
And leave here
In silent


I know now it happened to have someone
In between both of us
I got nothing to say but to accept it
Even thought I truly unhappy with it
But I’ll wait and wait and wait
Hopefully one day you’ll be mine
Completely mine


truly believe it
That’s the reason I waited for years
One day…
And that day
Where is my waiting ends


Love is patient, love is kind, and love never lies
Love is willingness to die for another’s life
Love is trust built over time, with hope and faith combined
True love will stand the storms of the test to the very end of time.


I’ll wait and wait and wait until my waiting days are over
I’ll wait from morning ‘till the night, I’m always on my standby
For years I’ll wait, for ages wait,
But there will be an ending point
The point I end my waiting days
Hopefully,
On the day you say ‘I do’
And it’s to me

christmas~~

hmm.. wat is all about christmas ?? some ppl think that christmas is all about holiday.. some ppl think that it's a gathering among friends and families... but wat actually is christmas ? hahha.. in a religion view.. it's the born of Jesus Christ.. hahha..

oh well.. wat did i do then ? on 24th, TTC family gather at my place.. we gather and we have fun.. Bbq here, talking crapzz, " suan siao " one another, sharing each others " cold " jokes, drink some wine and bla bla bla.. hahha.. oh ya i even learn how to ride a bike.. thanks to ghee oon and hoong.. hahha... well that night in my house got who ya ? hmm.. me, hubert, ah leong, anne, edmond, yee fan, wan xin, siew lee, zhi yong, ghee oon, hoong, steven, jocelyn, ck, pei pei, pei pei's friend, yen chee, and who else ya.. i also can't remember all.. hahha...

then next day, we went table tennis at 9am.. haha.. after that back home rest and sleep until quite late.. hahha.. then we go eat pizza and after that watch movie... till today the 26th.. went sibaraku for appreciation lunch for the lost camp.. haha... so chun we got ah lai ge cook for us.. hahha... thanks ya cos make us full till diaphargm there.. :P

hmm.. after all the enjoyment i had these few days.. i feel so guilty.. 1st because i spend alot.. 2nd because i dint study.. 3rd because i know i will gain weight de :( hahha...

finals is here.. so every1 jia you and gambateh !!!

sooner o later i'm going nuts~

i feel so much tension and stress these days... just last night !!! i really lost my mind.. driving lancer out and turn all the road i know in malacca just to find u... i can't believe i actually did that... i dono why... i dono wat happened.. i dono wat is going wrong.. i dono... i seriously don get it...

wearing formal after changed last night and in a lancer and police tot that i'm a fellow member of gangster ! oh pls police.. do i look like one ? just that i dint put on any smile last night u think i'm one of them ? u just couldn't understand wat is my feeling that time.. worried and scared.. scared of wat will happened next and worried wat will happened to u.. sigh..

presentation this morning was screw up.. no sleep whole night and went to place i don even know where.. i donooo... i can't be reliable on ? am i that bad ? sigh.. wat should i do ? any1 can tell me ? wat i feel now is to leave.. i really feel so hopeless... sigh...

hmm...

hmmm.. being emotional again these days.. arghhh... i dono why.. hahha.. i going nuts and crazy de.. hmm...

promises..

is promises mean to be break ?? the answer is yes !!!!! disappointment !!! important ?? i really don get it lak... sigh... just compare the importances ? then i'm not important at all !!! sigh...

christmas week......

6 more days to actually come to christmas.. and wat i know ppl around me are heading back to hometown.. hmm... back to sarawak one back.. back to serembam one also back.. back to kl one also back.. back to penanggg one also backk.. haihz..

coming 6 days.. wat should i do ? hmmm i really dono eh ! haihz... but tonight there will be a musical show perform by my fellow buddies and coursemate and classmate... they are .. too many lak, lazy to type their names de.. hahha.. but there mostly from CF.. anyway.. remember to go watch if u read this...

VENUE : MAIN HALL, MMU MALACCA CAMPUS
TIME : 730PM
FREE !!!! GOT DOOR GIFT !!! AND HANDMADE BOOKMARKS !!!!

thursday.. hmm will be my private time.. so P&C

friday.. also my private time but morning will be presentation.. haihz...

saturday... i forgot wat i need to do already but mostly will be go practising table tennis and some other stuff.. hmmm

sunday.. ranking tournament... but this time sure will fall from the 1st to dono which positions de lak.. huhuhhuhu.....

monday.. dono wat to do.. stay at home sleep..

tuesday... lagi dono wat to do... hmmm...

seeeeeee... my WONDERFUL and interesting christmas week !!! so SAD !!! haiz...

finally wake up...

this week suppose to be free but who knows everything seem to be like so busy.. haihz.. my schedules is pack from monday to friday.. hahha...

hmm.. replying my last blog.. i think i finally know wat is the feeling of love..

love is sometimes sweet when some1 treated u nice.. love sometimes bitter when some1 treated u cool and mean sometimes.. hmpff.. i just don understand why this happened...

love is good and love is bad..

love is to u and only but it's selfish in other ppl views...

love can mean to break but it doesn't apply to me.. hmmm... u know lak.. :P

althought ppl called me AMK, but i can only tell u that u really don understand me.. hmmmm...

love is short but i pray hard our love will last long..

when u are in love.. life is very unorganized, mysterous, excited, feeling nice, interesting, expectation, weird, funnny and everything that can colour ur day and life..

these day i may sound like very weird and confuse and insecure.. because i just feel very pack in my mind cos i can't recognise and can't believe tat it's all true.. but now.. i finally wake up from wat i think is wrong.. i believe that it's true and knowing that will be the right one.. just pray hard for everything.. hope u get wat i mean.. hmm... cos i know some1 is reading it.. :P

hmmm...

對很多人來説談過戀愛的人一定對戀愛的定義了如指掌
可是我很肯定地告訴大家那是錯的
因爲我到目前爲止還捉摸不定什麽是愛
我在談戀愛卻不知道什麽是戀愛
那很可悲耶可是我知道我是幸福的！
對我而言，那就夠了:)
愛到底是怎樣的呢?
是不是一個男生想照顧一個女生一輩子那麽簡單?
還是只是因爲孤單而需要另一半來度過下半輩子呢?
或者是愛根本沒有存在著？那愛又是怎麽開始的呢?


haha... sorry ya.. lazy to type in english de lor.. hahha...

喜欢与爱 like and love...

"喜欢与爱 @ like and love"

喜欢你的人：半夜会找你打电话聊天到很晚。 爱你的人：半夜看你在网上会赶你下线。
some1 like u : will call u and talk with u till late night.. some1 love u: will ask u stop chatting and go sleep !!

喜欢你的人：他会找你出去玩，叫你放弃正事或逃课。 爱你的人：他会催你快写作业或者与你讨论功课。
some1 like u: will always ask u out and leave away everything important.. some1 love u: will always ask u do ur homework and discuss homework with u..

喜欢你的人：在你生病时，会讲好话关心你。 爱你的人：在你生病时，他会关心到你烦，并强迫你去看医生。
some1 like u: will said everything that wan u to know he is care about u.. some1 love u: will nag u go see doc till u feel annoying..

喜欢你的人：他会尽量说好话来讨好你，你也会觉得很开心。 爱你的人：他所说的话，都是关心你的，但是通常象是在命令。
some1 like u: will only said something to make u feel happy.. some1 love u: watever he said is like command u but he really care about u alot..

喜欢你的人：他什么事情都会配合你，只要你开心。 爱你的人：他会帮你辨别是非，但是你会感觉他管的太多。
some1 like u: he will do watever thing with u, just wan u be happy.. some1 love u: he will help u differentiate wat is right and wat is wrong but u will feel that he care too much.. hmm..

喜欢你的人：他说他要给你最大的快乐。 爱你的人：他只能给你保证，你跟他在一起，你们会是最快乐的。
some1 like u: he will only said he will give u the biggest happiness.. some1 love u: he can only promise u that when u are with him, both of u will be the happiness one..

喜欢你的人：他在意你的生活细节，即使你做错了什么，他也不会指出来。 爱你的人：他在意你的一举一动，告诉你什么地方错了，什么地方该如何做，该如何与别人交往。
some1 like u: he will care about ur life but watever things u did it wrongly he will tell u about it.. some1 love u: he will care about ur every move and will tell u wat to did wrongly and how to do it.. and care about who u always hang out with..

喜欢你的人：他会帮你买夜宵，送夜宵，载你上下课或上下班。 爱你的人：他会帮你买夜宵，不过会提醒你吃什么比较健康；他会载你上下课或上下班，但通常是顺路；因为他不会为了你而逃课。因为他知道，他要为你们的将来而努力。
some1 like u: he will buy u supper and deliver it and fetch u go school and back school.. some1 love u: he will buy u supper and remind u wat to eat to stay healthy.. fetch u go school because it's convenient.. he won't skip class o ignore his work because he know that he need to work hard for both of ur future...

喜欢你的人：他不会在意你去做什么，与什么人交往。 爱你的人：他很在意你去做什么，与什么人交往。他还会告戒你不要与什么人交往 some1 like u: he won't care wat u doing and who are u hanging out with o working with o even ur friends.. some1 love u: he will care and wan to know wat are u doing all the time and who are u hanging out with all the time and ur friends and also ur wroking partner.. hmm..

喜欢你的人：他只想要现在 爱你的人：他会想到现在和已经预见未来，该怎么自我努力，好好给你幸福无论现在还是未来。
some1 like u: he will only think of now.. some1 love u: he will think of now and also the future.. know wat he need to do to give u happiness no matter now or in the future.. hmm..

喜欢你的人：他会说“我喜欢你！” 爱你的人：他会说“我爱你！”
some1 like u: he only say " i like u!" some1 love u: he only say " i love u!"

当你站在你爱的人面前,你的心跳会加速和感到开心。　 但当你站在你喜欢的人面前,你只感到开心。
when u stand beside some1 u like u will feel ur heart beat got faster and feel happy.. while when u stand beside some u like u will only feel happy..

当你与你爱的人四目交投,你会害羞。 但当你与你喜欢的人四目交投,你只会微笑。
when u look at ur love 1 directly, u will feel shy shy de.. when u look at some1 u like, u will only smile...

当你与你爱的人对话,你觉得难以启齿。 但当你和你喜欢的人对话,你可以畅所欲言。
when u talk with some1 u love, u will feel that u are stuck in ur words.. when u talk with some1 u like, u will talk very smooth..

当你爱的人哭,你会陪她一起哭和安慰她。 但当你喜欢的人哭,你会技巧的安慰她。
when u wanna cry, some1 u love will cry with u and comfort u.. while some1 u like only will use his skillful comfort technic to comfort u..

当你不想再爱一个人,你要闭上眼睛并忍着泪水， 当你不想再喜欢一个人,你只要掩住双耳!
if u donwan to love that person already, u need to close ur eyes and force ur tears not to come out.. if u don wan to like that person anymore, wat u need to do only close ur ears..

喜欢,是一种心情 爱,是一种感情, 喜欢,是一种直觉 爱,是一种感觉. 喜欢,可以停止 爱,没有休止。 喜欢一个人,特别自然 爱一个人,特别坦然。
like is only a emotional thing but love is a very mysterious thing.. like is only a instinct but love is a feeling.. like can stop but love can't.. like some1 is very normal but love some1 is very honest one..

喜欢一个人,有时候盼和他在一起 爱一个人,盼和他在一起也有时候怕和他在一起 。
like some1, u will feel like be with him some times but love some1, u will wan to be with him more but sometimes scare to be with him.. hmm..

喜欢一个人,不停的和他争执 爱一个人,不停的为他付出。
like some1, u won't stop argue with him.. but love some1, u will only know how to give her all the best u got..

喜欢一个人,希望他可以随时找到自己；　 爱一个人,希望可以随时找到他。
like some1, u hope he can always know what he is up to.. but love some1, i will always hope i can find her anytime and anywhere.. ahem...

喜欢一个人,总是为他而笑 爱一个人,总是为他而哭，
like some1, u will only smile because of her.. but love some1 u will only cry and sad because of her..hmpff...

喜欢,是执着 爱,是值得。
like is stubborn but love is treasure and worth de..hmm..

喜欢就是喜欢,很简单 。爱就是爱,很复杂
like is simple but love is far more complicated.. hmm..

喜欢你,却不一定爱你 。爱你,就一定很喜欢你　
like u but don love u.. but i love u and i like u alot too...

其实,喜欢和爱仅一步之遥。
actually like and love just a line different only... hmm...

story...

hmm.. suddenly think of this.. maybe u all can use it as ur reference la..

a guy named " h " like to ask her gf " are u tired and later wanna eat wat ? " with his hand at her gf waist..

her gf named " e " answer " h ".. "i'm already so tired de.. wanna eat wat also donwan faster decide.. and everytime have to ask me.."

" h " lower down his head and said " i just wan u to teman u eat something that u like.. after that see ur smile and leave away all the unhappy moment of ur work time.. i know i'm very useless and can't help u for all the things u gone through during ur work time.. wat only i can do is pamper u and sayang u... "

after " e " listened to wat " h " said, she said a " sorry " to him... " h " just answer back " it's ok.. u happy enough de.. " then give " e " a * muakz * on her fore head..

sometimes... we mayb feel very sad and unhappy of work, studies, friends, family and everything.. but we also can't ignore our beloved feeling and that will surely hurt some1 u love... that's why now a days, i will a smile on my face but not to show a unhappy face or show the bad temper of mine in front of those ppl i love.. no matter to family, friends and especially gf..

up n down n upppzzz...

hmm... everything seem to change very sudden everyday.. i dono wat to say.. but only can say that happiness can't last long and sadness won't continue forever.. but for every1 surely wanna be happy everyday n won't think of sad things o wat one la...

well.. these days, exam started n start a bit busy but still very lazy of studying for mid term.. as final approached, i'm getting lazier n more n more lazy.. haihz.. alot of tremenous change recently.. from a very strong changed to a weak person.. from an expert change to a noob... haihz.. i also dono wat happened to me.. i just wish to go back to the normal n previous me.. simple minder but i'm happy of my life.. hmmm.. honestly i don really feel happy of my life now.. hmm... seem like everything is not the way i wan too.. hmmm.. sad thing !!!

but thanks to u.. i feel much more happy de.. ppl said i'm very patience n from the deep of my heart i think i'm not really.. but because of some other reason that make me so patience.. hmm something that couldn't be explain in words... hahha.. muakzzz...

URL for lost camp and sibaraku photo....

not much photo actually... hahahha.. but anyway.. enjoy looking a it la...

http://www.facebook.com/photos.php?id=555023506&ref=pb

confident-less

hahha... is there any term like tat ?? this is the question i asked jasmine and she answered me " no wor " hmm...

i'm in kl and the most important point is... i'm alone in kl and it's saturday night !! argh.. suppose saturday night we should go out have fun and along out with gang and also friends or even some1 special.. hmm... but i'm alone in kl.. in my own hotel room and i'm completely alone... wah... should so AMAZE right ? but it's true.. no lies.. haihz...

today seem like alot of functions around.. this afternoon, i went to time square using kl monorial from hang tuah station.. actually just a station from there.. but it's completely and very very crowded... i waited 3 or 4 times only i can get into the monorial... and somemore it's very pack and i'm a sandwich when i come out from the monorial.. haihz... and in front of pavilion and star hill there are santassss... i tot they are giving out present and wanna go over.. cos see many ppl there.. hahha.. but only photo taking.. hiahz.. kinda disappointed.. hahah... guess i won't have any present this year as well.. # hint hint hint # *u know i know la ppl.. know wat to do right ? cos i'm complaining now.. haha*

hmmm... must be wondering why i say " confident-less " right ? hmm.. some1 who know me but not well will only feel that i'm very confident but actually ppl.. i'm a 100% confident-less guy.... no matter to my own abilities, my skills, my speaking, my out look, my relationship, my friends and so on.. i always feel so confident-less... haihz.. not i don trust ppl but i don trust myself.. cos i feel like i'm some1 useless.. some1 who will be forgetten and being taken for granted.. hmm... o maybe these days i feel kinda sad, emo and disappointed with alot of things.. hmm... i wonder wat.. haihz... i donooooo.....

ok... i'm meeting up my family here in kl but i really very tired cos need to follow their rhythm.. they walk super slow la.. especially my aunty and her daughter... like turtle.. ahhaha... bought nothing here for myself nor to others... hahahha... money-less.. hahah... broke de la.. need to ask for this month pocket money 1st before i can spend of some christmas present.. haha...

how to spend this year christmas ?? hmm.. that day ttc family say wanna spend it at yee fan's ug house.. and exchange present and bring foods n wine n beer for celebration.. hahha... dono them le.. always say then forget and spend with bf or gf one la... FFK-king for ttc family !! hahahhahahahhahah..... anyway.. will update very soon about it.. who ever are alone o feel like joining can always let me know ya.. hahha... wanna party !!! hehe... n wanna spend more time with u during this special moments.. hmm... u know la.. :P

arghhHHhHhHHHhHHhhhHHHh..........

hmm... is promises meant to be break ? i really dono... why i'm the one who always being taken for granted.. no matter who.. why u will always think that " wen how sure got his own way to settle it.. " or " it's ok la.. i know he won't angry with it.. " wat am i to u ? i really dono... friend ? love ones ? family ? sigh... don think that i'm very smart and clever or even superman o wat.. i just a very normal person.. and just wan a very normal life..

i like ppl find me when ppl need my help and i will surely try my best to help... but when i really need ur help ? will u be there ? promises and " ok " and " kk " and "tomorrow lak".. is it stuff that u had promised me is not as important as others ? is it wat okay o deal o plans that had been planned not important at all ?? tomorrow and tomorrow and tomorrow.. endless tomorrow.. is it that i need to wait till the day i die only not tomorrow ??? sigh.... i just some1 who u to being take for granted.. i really dono and don understand..

i just nobody to u ppl.. sometime action is better than words.. just don be some1 who is NATO.. No action, Talk only.. sigh... why GOD impliment promise ? is because He wan us to trust each others and help each others and make each other happy with the promises that had been make.. hmmm.. why we just can't make out promise or plan happened ? sigh...

arghhhHhHHHHHhHHhHhHHHhhHHhhhHH..........................................................................