alpha till now...

during my alpha time.. i spent 30% study, 35 % playing table tennis, 10 % play basketball, 15 % missing somebody, 5 % with friends and coursemate and another 5 % being alone... like isn't so interesting after all.. but tat year.. my life change.. is it because i come to mmu n i learned something called " unfair " ?, " betray" ?, " lies"?, and etc n etc.. wat a shame cos all i learned here are negative stuff.. sigh... and ya.. it took me 1 year ++ to forget something or maybe some1.. swt.. >.>

it's ok.. when i'm in beta i started to treasured most of the friends around me and started to join some activities and get myself active and busy... but GOD stirke me again.. i was so called like promoted o something.. friends trusted me and i being appointed with some important tasks.. is it a good sign ? n i met some1.. again is it a good sign ? throughout whole beta year.. i went through hundred of different experiences.. 1st time clubbing in malacca also started here.. 1st time ask a girl for hp also.. and many more.. n all along this beta year i had been hurt alot... ya it's alot.. ouch.. when think back also feel sakit hati..

never mind.. when come to gamma.. i tot things will started to change and become better.. but who knows.. it become even worst.. but.. something good is here.. i finally got my own ttc gang.. but good things never last long.. our relationship started to goes downhill because of many arguement and " bu shuang ".. this year i spent 40% table tennis, 25% study, 20% being alone and 15% being friends... this year.. one of the biggest even i ever organized happened which is intervarsity tournament..

n now... i spent 20% table tennis, 30%s study, 40% being alone, 10% being with friends.. tat is till today..

what about u ?? is it u spent 49% being with friends, 39% being alone, 10% missing, 1.9 % for family and 0.1 % for some1 u called dear ?

think back... why i never spent anytime with some1 i called dear from alpha till now ? maybe it not even till 0.1 she spent her time with me.. ='(