is it really under control ??

ever think of something or everything u do are under control ? or even anything u going into are under control ?? usually i always confidence with things tat i going for and things i'm working for... i believe in myself for everything i want it to be n even thou it is not as prefect as i wan it to be but at least there are 80% of my ideal results.. or something things might be better than i tot !? hmmm...

but... and but again.. triple buttt.... wat if things aren't under ur control but u always think u are manage to control the whole situation ??? have u ever experienced it before ?? or are u experiencing it now ??? must be wondering now huh ?

to be honest... i'm having this problems again n again... the things i always tot i already had it or even i already think i own it actually aren't belong to me at all... must be thinking of why i'm so careless and always miss count right ? i'm not stupid at all just that i'm blur and trust with those stupid and nonsense stories that made up by some ppl !!! i could said i gave u my trust but yet u think i'm barking... am i just a dog to u ? wth !!! i could just imagine if one day there isn't any1 be there for me if i keep on making out stories like tat.. so think careful before u saying something that irresponsible !!!

from my YM and MSN status u can see that i'm tired in both chinese and english... i'm really tired of this thingy.. maybe i should really make my moves and also let it be like how it should be like..

seem like there are really many n many things that couldn't be in control by me... but u ? u can change things in just a " donwan " o any reasons... super dissapointed.. and damn mad of u... tell me GOD ! why this world is so unfair ?? hiahz.. but no matter how loud i shout there isn't any answer for me but all doubt to come appear... i hate being like tat..

under control again.... once awhile i really think that i'm under control about a friendship... but this kind of thing isn't that u wan control then can control... this friend left me ( althou we are still friend ) but then we isn't as close as before anymore... yet because of some reason and problems that's why conflict occurs.. i really treasured u as my friend !! just hope it will be fine the next time we meet each others.. thanks for everything my friend...

btw... ever think of why things isn't under ur control ? i think of some..
1. cos u are too nice to some1 that make some1 don care about u
2. cos u are too nice to some1 that some1 dono how to repay u so some1 start to avoid u
3. cos u never know wat is happening
4. cos u are such a loser ( like me !!!!)
5. cos u are blinked with some stupid stories and reasons ??
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there are hundred tat i listed out.. but wat for right ?? sometime something couldn't be change o mayb i really should be more determine in wat i wan and wat isn't FULL OWN by me i should have give it away...

again... and again and triple again !!!!! = (again * 2 )*2*2*2 = again x 16.. this is wat we called maths !!!!

before this post ends.. ask urself...

" is it all really under ur control ??? "

i'm not.. but i hope u all are...